I am happy!

I have to be honest with myself. I feel great now that I decided to dedicate some of my time to my health. I am not as tired anymore. Getting on that scale is breathe taking. Whether it's a pound or 4, It's a good feeling. I don't look at losing weight right now as a burden. It's actually being fun. Its a challenge to see if I can push myself just a little more every day. If I get bored, I will explore different things. It's not that complicated and I shouldn't make it that way. I am so proud of myself. I think that I may be maturing because lately I set a goal and I work hard to achieve it. I realize there will be road blocks but they will not stop my drive. I love myself and that is enough to do anything.

Sooooooo I believe this is month 2 on my commitment and it feels good. =)

How's that for motivation.

Im'ma Diva

The diva strides and flexes lightly yet her footsteps resonate and all who sense the ripples stop and turn around. Her power is her freedom, her freedom is her joy. Her joy is boundless like the wind unstoppable sometimes soft and gentle, sometimes like a hurricane she takes you, and she sweeps you up and far away ... Her laughter owns the sky and all is at her mercy, at her touch of wilderness enchantment, vibrant lightning bringing rush of life, wherever it may strike. Bow your head in reverence and pray! Her smile as you emerge the chosen one will raise you, a breathless moment - Step beyond, become immortal in the mirror of her gaze.

.... Silvia Hartmann

A personal 5 day challenge---Women stuff

Well, I just realized that its that time of the month. Usually I fall short during this freaking time of the month. Its like my body starts having withdrawals for sugar. It takes every ounce of my willpower to get through this. Don't get me wrong I don't starve myself during this week. I feed my hunger, just not like my brain wants. In the past I could sit and eat a box of cookies. I may have 2 cookies now(just depending on the calories). So see, I am still giving my body what it wants but not giving in to temptation. Wish me luck!!!

I'm not going to weigh myself this weekend since I am going to be bloated but I will Monday.

Have a great weekend.

Remember is not a diet, It's being healthy and loving your body!

Its been a while but ...shit I have no real reason I been gone so long

All my life I start and stop diets. I havent been fat all my life but I have always been on the thicker side. I guess that's what you can say. Well, I realized a few things and I want to share;

I am not writing this for anyone but myself. Its something that I can read every now and then when I feel that I want to give up.

1. Dieting don't work. Point blank. When you take food away, one day you are going to want that food and you are going to eat that food. Then you may just eat TOO much of that food.

2. Eat what you want. If you want a piece of cake. Get that piece of cake. I didn't say a hunk or chunk of cake but a piece....reasonable piece!

3. Drink 8 oz of water before every meal. Its a lil secret that helps you eat less. Not only that just drink your water, all day! When you have that urge to snack on that candy bar, go sip on water and get you a piece of gum. Get them toxins out your body....The more you drink the more you are visiting the bathroom. That goes for your fiber, too. Lets be real here. We all go poop. You need to be pooping. Get that fiber in too. I take a fiber supplements. I actually take a multi-vitamin as well. Before you go taking all this herbal stuff, Take to your doctor. They will help you. That's what you are paying your insurance for remember?!?!

4. Damn, slow the hell down. Give your brain a chance to realize you are eating and to time react. Enjoy your food!!!

5. Exercise. Another one you shouldn't avoid. You NEED at least 30 minutes. Dont be lazy just get up and do it. You need to raise that heart rate and bust a sweat. Its as easy as walking in the evenings. Its too hot you say, well go to the mall and walk it a few times. Walk around it about 2 times, window shop. When you finish then you know where all the sales are and THEN you can go shopping.

6. Pray about it. Ask the Lord to help ya out a lil. Some may be like...pllllease! But really, you pray about everything else. Ask the Lord for strength to get through this.

7. Leave your excuses at the back door. I have 3 year old twins, a first grader, I'm in school full time and a Army husband that is never home. I make time for 30 minutes. Remember if you don't love yourself first, how can you love the people around you the way you think they desire. I'm just saying.... man, its time to see the beauty in yourself and take care of YOU.

8. Write down what you eat. I think most of my weight is coming off because I am being accountable for what I eat. I actually have an account on www.fitday.com. It's wonderful. I log my food, activity, and weight. Seeing that my efforts are working. That feels good. You can even pull it up on your phone.

9. This one is my biggest problem. You didn't get fat with a food buddy. You don't NEED a workout buddy. I have been going to the gym daily. Doesn't mean that I LOVE going. Doesn't mean I don't enjoy going with a friend. But you cant depend on a friend to get that weight off. Get you a walkman, Ipod, or even a magazine or book. Change up your workout. Don't get bored with your routine. Do searches online on the different things you can do at the gym or home.

10. Please Please Please, Dont give up. You desire to make yourself healthier. If you have a break in your plans and miss going to the gym one day. Go the next day or even get on youtube, turn on the radio, or CD and dance. If you over eat one day. Its ok. The best of us have bad days. Just eat the damn thing and move on. Dont sit and be gloomy about it. You made a mistake and now its time to move on.

11. Dont get on that damn scale everyday. That scale can be the enemy. When you are weighting yourself everyday, you begin to expect certain things. Pick a day and weight in. Write it down. It you lose weight, thats great. If you didn't, dont get discourage. See what you are doing and how you can improve on it.

12. Dont believe the hype. Being healthy is not expensive. For the most part, Water is free. Though, I dont care for tap water but I will drink it if I dont have my favorite brand. I just put some in the freezer get it real cold and DRINK. Portion control, that's free. Actually that might even save you some money. Read labels. See how much you are supposed to be eating. Bargain shop, clip coupons, catch the sales, you can do it. Remember you dont need diet food in order to lose weight. You need self-control. It can be HARD. Yes, HARD. But remember stay focused and you can do it. Dont expect perfection. Expect reality and gain knowledge on all that you do.

13.I am not saying be skinny. BE HEALTHY! What ever that size may be to you, just keep your heart and body healthy!

A reason, a season and even a lifetime

God places people in our lives maybe for a lifetime, maybe for a season, but always for a reason. Sometimes God will bring these healing packages into our life for a season. Other times they may be in our life for a lifetime. God will bring them into our life, but it is often up to ‘us’ how long we allow God’s input to stay in our lives. Let’s let God decide the seasons, rather than us.

When God places someone is in your life it’s always for a reason. It may be for a lesson, or even to support you during a difficult time, they even provide us with support and guidance, for some reason they are there to aid our needs physically, emotionally, or spiritually. We may not always realize their reason but God has sent them with a purpose and it will reflect in your life forever. Also, they may not always be around but their mark in your life will always remain strong.

When God places someone in your life for a season, it is similar to a farmer during the harvest. During this time, the farmer is blessed with a beautiful land and crops to share and enjoy. When the season is over, all the gifts that the land provided have ceased. We have people in our lives like this. They offer us everything we need when we need it and when it’s time for them to leave we have to let them go and start nurturing ourselves. People come and go, but looking into the purpose of why they have to become part of you is realizing the gifts the real beauty of your life.

And then God sends us someone for a lifetime. They are there for you and with you through it all. They are our rock, our partner and even friend. God has placed this person in our life to help build our spiritual, emotional and physical foundation. We must accept this person in our lives for this type of blessing isn’t something that comes just every day or even a season. Often times we always feel like we need to tell God what we require and the things we want him to readily change, but he knows what we need before we even ask. This is one reason he provides us with people for a lifetime.

We should learn to value those that God sends into our lives to teach us lessons - regardless of how it’s presented to us.

GOOD NEWS!!!

I forgot to post this sooner but YAY!!!! Mike was accepted to OCS.

April 1st -beginning of new goals.

Hopefully the joke isn't on me. Today is the day I decide to set yet another goal for myself. This time its not so much weight loss but health. I am *gasp* 31 and I think that its time to think about my longevity. I am starting my new vitamin regiment. I working out EVERYDAY for at least 30 minutes. My skin and nail care is going to be kicked up a notch. I am going to taking the time and care about me on the inside and out.