They are truly my gift. These two individuals make me work HARD for the title mommy. I am actually fussing at them while I type. After giving birth to Matthew, I had a long talk with God. I thanked him for answering my prayers. I really didnt think about having more because I worked so hard to get him. I said that I would treasure that gift and move forward. Then one day out of the blue I get pregnant. When I said it was out of the blue it was out of the blue. My husband and I had talked about sterilization. Actually making appointments for it. We came to accept have just one son. When I took that test, I was pregnant in deed. SHOCKING!!!
I was pregnant for 5 months before finding out that I was pregnant with twins. I didnt find out until my 20 week Ultrasound. I mean I was HUGE. I was 5 months but looked like 7 or8. Some even thought I was due any day now. I think I didnt know I was carrying twins because God knew that if I knew I was pregnant with my double trouble that I would loose my mind worrying. So, he let me know when the time was perfect. I just have to say it was more perfect for God and not for us.
Walking back into the u/s room, the tech asked if I was pregnant with twins and I answered very indignantly... NO. She put they U/S wand on my belly and there were two babies. She said it so nonchalantly, "Awww, look at the twins." My husband fell to his knee saying you got to be shitting me. I was in shock. To the point that they had to sit me up and give me water. See, it was that much of a shock.
Ok, get this. My grandmother had two sets of twins and my husband is a twin. Why was it shocking I dont know but it was shocking.
Besides me getting HUGE and being very uncomfortable. I couldnt even fit 3x clothes by the time I had the girls and I had them when I was 8 and a half months. The picture was before I GOT huge at 31 weeks. HA HA!!! I was huge then too huh??
At birth one was 8lbs11oz and the other 6lbs15ozs.....Huge babies!!! Everything was great at first and then BAM. There is my test. Me and God have this testing relationship. He loves to test me through my children. Morgan gets really sick the day before its time for us to go home. She was dying and no one knew why. They had to rush her to the children's hospital to try and find what was going on. After a few days and 99 test later. NO LIE 99 test. They found out that she had Renal and heart failure. Her heart shut down because something was wrong with her kidney. After two LONG weeks, I was able to bring my baby home to her brother and sister. She only has one functioning kidney and has high blood pressure. We are blessed to have her here with us because at one point we just didnt know. When we came to the hospital to keep her up she was the largest baby in NICU. I still smile at that today. Here is this fat ole baby sitting with these Tiny itty bitty babies. If you would have seen if you would have laughed. But anyway, she is fine now besides having to take meds. She is the worst one. She fights and play just as hard as the others.
See when I say that I worked hard for my babies. Let me tell you I worked hard.
I tried to give you the synopsis of the story because I didn't want to make this post huge. I'm looking out for you! :)