Thursday, December 3, 2009

My Journey to a better me and better spiritual health

So, I was talking to my husband yesterday (the reason I have abandoned my husband.) and he said that he likes the new and improved me. He said that he noticed that I am really putting effort in my self-improvement. Now, that led me to think two things. First, I must be doing something right because the man that notices nothing noticed that. OR, I have really let myself go and he didnt want to say anything. You know I wasnt actually brave enough to ask which one was it. He wouldnt tell me anyway. Nevertheless, I feel really good that my efforts are being noticed. I just have to keep it up.

I tend to start things and never follow through. I'm working on that too. I still have to work on my weight. YES, I have a problem with my weight. I don't want to be this big but it seems that I am not putting the effort to fix it. I am addicted to food. I guess just like any other addict I have to face the problem, say a loud I have a problem and then do something to fix the problem. EASIER SAID THAN DONE. I know that over the years, I have gained a lot of weight. About 70-80 to be exact. Now I am ready to let go. I know this subject is popular with me but it is starting to bother me that I haven't put the effort towards doing what I need to do.

Spiritually, I have grown soooooo much. I am still working on going back to church on a regular. Why I don't go to church on a regular? I haven't found a church that compliments my lifestyle. I know that one is out there but I soooooo not like to look. Heck, I don't like looking in stores like TjMaxx or Marshalls because of the efforts of looking for something to fit me. I do have to say, I don't have a problem with going to God, talking to God and letting him take control. There are times that I have to remind myself that God got this but I am getting so much better.

Overall, I am very proud of where I come. I mean I can say a few years ago I couldn't even write a blog exposing my weaknesses. When I learn to let go of the things that are not healthy for me spiritually, mentally and physically , I feel better. I feel like a better person. I still have my faults but I am work in progress.

1 comment:


That is fantastic that your husban noticed that!!!! I totally feel you on the church thing. I'm looking for a new church because I just don't like my church, my pastor said we have to pay to get into heaven but that's a whole nother story. LOL.