Right Now....

watching...my handsome husband on webcam


reading... I have finals this week. I am reading school books




listening... My handsome husband's voice on the webcam




knowing...If you are not your own biggest fan, why should others cheer you on




wanting... Cake


embracing...my new workout routine

I think I found my motivation...

I woke up looking forward to going to the gym. WHAT?!? A fat lady loving the gym. That's right. I have a new love. It may be because its the one hour of the day that I can have peace. No screaming and fighting of the kids. It's just me and my music. The more stressed I am I found myself working out hard. This is really exciting to me. I will make my goal. I have about 70 lbs to lose to get back to my girlish figure and having this new found love for the gym is right up my alley.

The hubby outlook on my new hobby.

He is all for me finding things to entertain me while he is gone. I mean when he comes home this summer, he will be preparing to leave again. I need something to keep me sane while he is gone but he advised me ever so hubby like...he said "Look, you realize that we are moving AGAIN right?" Yes bay I realize that. "Well dont be shopping too much since you insist on not using movers. You will not be breaking my back...Do you remember last time?" Yes, I remember last time. Soooooo, I guess I will slow down because I was headed for consignment shopping like a craze woman with a mission. 

So, I digress and start with new lamps. I redecorated everyone's room and now we all need new lamps and the kids need new side tables. That's easy right? Well that is what I am going to start next. Man, I am excited. I have a side table and chest of drawers for my son. I am going to paint it and give it a new appeal. It is actually This End Up side table and chest of drawers from when I was a child that needs a new life.

Frustration...maybe even madness

Yesterday evening I went to pull my car back in the garage to make room for my lawnmower. I couldnt get the key in the ignition. No lights No noise No nothing. I figured that the battery may have died but I wasnt sure since I wasnt able to get the key in the ignition. I have one of those cars that dont need the key in the ignition to start but has to be near the car. When it didnt respond to that I was blown. I was to fit to be tied. I was frustrated. It seems that every time my husband leaves something goes wrong with my car. Not to meniton I just purchased this car in February. It would be simple enough to put the car in neutral and ask my neighbor for a jump but the shift is in lock position. I cant get the sucker to move. Well I was determined that I wasnt going to try to take the battery out and get in a cab to go to the auto parts store. Which left me with the option of spending 55 bucks to get the local tow company to help me out. Of course it started and I had to drop my son off at school a hour late. Looking at what he did, I know that I could have done that myself.

There was a shift lock release....GRRRRR!!!

Well I do have to say that after I did let it run for a while, dropped my son off to school and then drove over to the auto part school to test the battery it was strong and recharged. I didnt have to buy a battery. I was excited about that especially since the guy told me that if I did need a battery I needed a special one because of what my battery powers in the truck. So I was allll excited about having a power EVERYTHING truck to be actually disappointed that this thing will be costing me a pretty penny when I need a new battery.

 I have to thank God for not being out and about though. I was safe at home and I have a GREAT local repair shop in the neighborhood that came out 10 minutes after I called.

Thank you God!
Thank you Tom and Tony  Auto Repair for being so fast and friendly
and
Thank you Joe at the auto parts store. Cant remember the name of the place. But Joe was really easy on the eyes. =)

I think I may have found something new...maybe a new hobby

I wanted a sideboard for my dining room but I didnt like the prices that I have seen at some furniture stores. Then I started looking online for some alternatives. Then I found this craze of thrifty decorating and trash to treasure. I am familiar with trash to treasure because I did a shabby chic meets safari theme in the girls room and I love it. I found headboards for really cute...actually matching. My husband and I refinished them and I am proud of the work we done. My mother came to visit and didnt realize that I actually refinished some ugly finds on the side of the road. Well now I am on a mission to find something to to make a sideboard. I was thinking a dresser. Maybe adding some longer legs, painting it and changing the hardware. I will keep you posted. I have to finish my dining room, family room, my son's and both upstairs bathroom. I have the downstairs powder room just about finished. This my new interest....Thifty decorating!!! YAY! I am so excited. Yes, I am a nerd.

I thought I lost it but nope I found it

The gym that is. I finally went back to the gym. Working out at home is not working for me. I need to get out the house and go to the gym. That's what works for me. That's what I need to do. I make excuses when I am at home. I dont work as hard when I am home. I had the best horrible hour of my week. I worked hard and sweated a lot but it was great. You know that hour that I lost yesterday, well I got it back today. I guess its time to reprioritize and work it out.

Well how did Thursday go....

Epic Fail. Yep, Didnt get a "me" day. Nope I am not bitter. GRRRRR!! I am in need of a "me" day. I am going to get a "me" day. So let me tell you one example of me needed a "ME" day.

So when I take my girls to ballet yesterday, I freak! HELL, I forgot to sign them up for next month classes. I missed current student registration. Which means that their spots are open for enrollment. I run over to registration window. In a slight panic I joke with one of the people that work there and ask him "WHY OH WHY didnt you remind me about registration. You know that I am in need of assistance". We joked and laughed about it. Guess what, There classes were filled. Even Matthew Tae Kwon Do. SHHHHIIITTTT, what am I going to do. My kids are going to be soooo disappointed. Then I found a class for the twins but Tae Kwon Do...NOPE. 

I knew that if I wanted to add Matthew to the class I had to talk to the Sensai. So I went home. Since Tae Kwon Do isnt until later that evening, I had time to kick myself repeatly in my ass for being sooooo flightly. 

Now its time to go to practice. I talk to Eric (the Sensei...Instructor) and he said that I was able to add Matthew to the class for next month. THANK GOODNESS. So I went back to talk to the lovely people at registration to have him added. All of a sudden, I noticed the young lady behind the desk get flustered. She told me that matthew was already in the class. He was signed up on the 15th of the month. I asked her if she was sure. Then I told her I signed the girls up earlier that day but couldnt sign Matthew up because the class was filled. I went to grab my reciept and showed her that I indeed didnt sign Matthew up. Then something told me to look in my wallet and look over last month receipt after a big ole conversation with everyone that worked there. I mean I get a free class if I didnt pay for it already because if he already in the class. Now that rocks.

WELL GUESS WHAT.....I did sign the kids up for their classes. I just forgot. Everyone laughed it off. They reminded me that I was in school, had twins and my husband was gone. I am allowed to have a flighty moment. In my head I was hoping my checking account felt the same way. Thats a lot of money to be forgetful with. Lucky, I didnt hurt my account and addition to ballet the girls are in gymastics next month.

I need to write stuff down. I tried carrying a pad with notes for reminders. HA HA HA HA, I lost it. So much for that. Gosh, I need a vacation.

The life of a wife of a soldier.......

Today is Thursday...

Which means that I need to take one hour just for me. hmmm, Right now its been hard to do it weekly. I mean being a single mother while my husband is doing soldierly (I know not a word) duties, my school, and the fact that all the kids extracurricula activities are today, its been hard to get that extra time in. So I figured that I will get them to bed and no homework, no phone, no computer for an hour. Just me time. I might even pull out my sewing machine. I have been wanting to do some crafty stuff but havent had the time. Well today is the day that I work on something that is crafty and fun. One hour of this, my music, and my sanity...I am actually looking forward to it.

We're off to see the dentist, The wonderful dentist of alll

Well Matthew had to go to the dentist today. Which wouldnt be a big deal for some but he has a cavity. He hates needles, and the drill...No way.

Well he went back by himself. They came out and told me that he was having a lil bit of a hard time but he did it. There were dried up tears and a lot of frustration on my lil man face but he did it. Then I asked if he was strong enough to go back and battle the world of 1st grade. At first, he told me that he was just a little to hurt to deal with school but then later said that he wanted to show his friends his new and improved tooth.

I love that boy! Dramatic but I love him. Guess what, he doesnt take that after mommy. Daddy takes the blame for that one. Though I believe that men are undercover dramatic creatures. Dont get them sick.....

So I need to stop listening to the radio....

The question of the day:


If you see a mate of one of your friends talking to the opposite sex, would you make your presence known?


I think that I wouldnt bust up over to them but  I probably would take notice of the situation. Would I go and find out who the other person was? Probably not. If there was any No-No's taking place, it will all surface. What is done in the dark will suface to the light. I would stay out of it because honestly I dont know the situation. I may mention that I saw so and so at this place but be the channel 9 news reporter....so not me. If asked, I may say what I saw the mate and that's it. I wont make ASSumptions. It may be innocent.  Would I want someone to tell me? Yes and No. Just being who I am. I am probably going to listen to the report. Then I will judge and approach the situation in my own way. No, because sometimes hear say is a powerful thing. ASSumptions. So, I guess I would have to be in the situation to know what and how I would want to deal with the situation.


I actually was in a situation like this once. My husband had someone tell him that I was hugged up on some guy. I did hug a guy but it was a friend from years back. It was an innocent WOW, IT BEEN AGES. HOW ARE YOU AND YOUR FAMILY kind of deal. When I actually heard the story back from other's. It was I was hugged up and flirting. THe hubs didnt ask me about it but I know his "I heard you ran into so and so" was his way of feeling out the situation.

Weight In....My phat tracker

So I did lose a pound. Which isnt bad. But I know that I need to do better. If I actually put effort into that I probably would have done better. I have to be honest and remind myself that I HAVE to workout. Leave the excuses at the back door. So this week, I am going to get in at least 30 minutes of exercise at least 3 times this week. I put a goal of 7 lbs this week. Kind of high? I know. I know. Two weeks of only 2 lbs lost, I have to kick start my motivation again. I can do it. I know I can. I just have to put the effort in it. Will update you on Wednesday on my progress. Until then...

Right now....

watching...looking at the rain


reading... Diva Diaries by Janine A Morris. Not adding to my favorite list




listening... One of the twins singing as she play




knowing... That if I keep on the track that I was on last week that I will not lose those 3 lbs goal I made for myself this week.




wanting... The nice spring weather to last


embracing... the fact that I'm almost done with school. I am soooo proud of myself.

Soooo Spring break is coming up. What to do? What to do?

Spring break is around the corner. I want to do something fun with the kids but I have yet to figure something out. I don't want to do too much traveling but I want to do something educational and fun all wrapped in one. I think that I have been boycotting this move long even. I have 2 more years here so I better make the best of it. Why not start with spring break right??

I guess I am on a mission to find something fun and educating that isn't too far from home. I have yet to brave the world with all three of the kids without Daddy. I am getting there since they are getting a lot older but not quite there yet.

This time change is not helping

Have I ever shared with you that when my husband is gone that I can't sleep. Honestly I dont know why but I find myself going to be later and later each day. Now that this time change has come and gone, I feel like I am going to tip over. I have tried everything but sleeping pills to get to sleep. I just dont feel comfortable takign a sleep aid. I even tried turning on the TV to a boring show to bore myself to sleep. While guess what, the boring shows even become interesting. I honestly should be tired. I am on the go all day. Then I come home to chasing kids, cleaning and homework. What the heck man!!!! I want one good night of sleep.....Drool induced sleep.

My Saint Patrick's Day Look.

Its not great but its okay I guess for a beginner. 

My upcoming fast

Yes, I am going to do it in the spirit of easter and my health. I am going to do the Daniel Fast for 10 days starting on Monday the 22nd. If you do participate in this fast make sure that you are healthy enough to be on such a restricted diet. Consult a physician


Sooooo, what's the Daniel fast?

In the Bible, Daniel rejected the foods that the King of Babylon set before him. Likely, the meats were animals that had been sacrificed to idols and gods other than the God of Israel. Daniel and his three companions refused to pollute themselves with the King’s delicacies. The principal court official got worried that these young men would become weak. The King would not be happy with this because these young men, along with several other Israelite captives, had been hand selected as the best of them all. He wanted them trained to serve in the palace.

Eating these foods would mean defiling himself before his God, so Daniel requested that the court official give him and his companions a diet of “vegetables and water” for 10 days as a test. At the end of the 10 days they were in better health than the other captives who had been eating the rich food of the King. They went on to have very prominent positions in the King’s service.

In other words, I will be going on a vegan diet. 


And what are you allowed to eat?


On this fast, I will only eat fruit and vegetables alone with nuts, seeds, brown rice, oats and barley. I will also include legumes (beans) in this fast as well. I will only drink water and decaffeinated green tea. Some people are more strict and some are less. This is what I will be doing. 

Foods that I am avoiding: 

All meat and animal products including but not limited to beef, lamb, pork, poultry, and fish.

All dairy products including but not limited to milk, cheese, cream, butter, and eggs.

All sweeteners including but not limited to sugar, raw sugar,  syrups, molasses, and cane juice.

All leavened bread including Ezekiel Bread (it contains yeast and honey) and baked goods.

All refined and processed food products including but not limited to artificial flavorings, food additives, chemicals, white rice, white flour, and foods that contain artificial preservatives.

All deep fried foods including but not limited to potato chips, French fries, corn chips.

All solid fats including shortening, margarine, lard and foods high in fat.

Beverages including but not limited to coffee, carbonated beverages, energy drinks, and alcohol.

Twin questions....Random

Two questions I never get tired of.... How can you tell your girls apart? Are they twins or sisters? I giggle every time I get asked. Which is ALL the time.

1. They are fraternal. Though, when they are dress alike, I cant tell who they are when their back is to me. I just keep calling names until someone answers.

2. They are both; twins and sisters. I love the look I get when I answer that. Then when they break down in laughter with a oops is priceless.

But what's sad is when the twins tries to pull the switch when people dont know them well...SMH! You can tell that they are sisters if you enter a room full of children. They do look a like but one looks more like me and the other more like daddy. They are some slickters. I love them...

Black and White; Black soap review

Someone told me to check out black soap. I was a little hesitant because I like to see. I mean literally. I start experimenting on facial products and my eye sight is gone. I stated before that I am allergic to a lot of facial products out there. Soon as I use something new, I wind up with blurry vision and a swollen face. I cant be beautiful with those issues. Well I finally tried it. I am on day 2. I can still see and the swollen face so far is the inherited variety. Chubby face genes. I actually like this soap. After I use it I feel that it has REALLY cleanse my face. I still use the same moisturizer but so far so good. I am loving this soap.


Ingredients. Sodium palmate, Sodium Cocoate, Water, Glycerin, Fragance (it smells good), Theobroma, Grandiflorum Seed Butter, Tocopheryl Acetate, Sodium Chloride, Pentasodiu, Pentetate, Iron Oxides, Titanium Dioxide, D & C Orange #4, D & C Red #33....... Lots of salt...Hmmmmm


So far I give this product 4 stars. I will update you in a few weeks after continous uses.

PHAT TRACKER WEEKLY CHECK-In 3/7-13/10

HELLLLLLOOOO baybay,

Well I have to say that last week was a struggle for me. When I am PMSing, weight loss are on my shit list. I suck. I have a week of emotional disaster and then the next week is bloating, cramping , and all the great things ladies go through during that time.

During the first week I am hungry, I mean HUNGRY. I want to eat and cry. I am a disaster I tell you. Since I been cutting back its even worst. I am surprised that I didnt gain weight. I did lose a pound after all this bloating. I will hop on the scale tomorrow and see if I lost any more weight since I gain 4-5 lbs during PMS because of the bloating.

I also have a haul for you. I dont know if I told you this before but I LOVE green tea. Some would say that I think that green tea can heal anything. HA! They are semi-right. I think just about anything. Well as I was  refilling my pantry with green tea, I came across this product; Yogi Green tea Blueberry Slim life. It states that it should energize and suppress your appetite. I believe that I spend 6 bucks on it. It has 16 bag and is 100% natural.

Well I dont know about the energizing part because I have enjoyed this tea at night right before bed and the energizing part has had no effect on me. This brand does have caffeine which is probably why it claims to give energy. I think that the suppressing appetite part is working a bit though. My craving  really dont set in and if I drink a cup. The box states that they add the natural extract of the fruit Garcinia Bombogia to help suppress the appetite.  Sooooo if you enjoy Green Tea, pick up some and try it yourself. Even if it doesnt do what I thought it was going to do. I love the added blueberry flavor in my green tea. Some may not like green tea. I know my mother always say it taste like weeds to her but I am quite fond of it. It is an excellent antioxidant. I am also a coffee addict and I am trying to limit my coffee intake to 1 cup a week.This is dropping down from about 3 cups a day. I guess that is why I dont drink sodas often. I dont need it when I have my coffee. I try not to drink this brand much because of the caffeine  but I did want to try it out. I usually drink a decaffeined varity.

I also forget to mention that this company encourages Yoga. The box reads: " Sit cross-legged or in a chair with spine straight and feet flat. With eyes closed, close off the right nostril with right hand and inhale slowly through left nostril. Hold breath as long as possible, then release slowly and hold out as long as possible. Continue for 1 to 3 minutes. What a soothing way to keep your appetite in check."

Right now I'm

watching...The computer screen

reading... Math book

listening... Silence

knowing... Finding and being happy within is helping me lose this weight

drinking... Water.

wanting... My husband home

embracing... my life

What is your marriage deal breaker??

In an interview with ABC’s Barbara Walters comedienne/actress Monique says the secret to a happy marriage is to let your husband cheat.

“Could Sid have sex outside of his marriage with me? Yes. That’s not a deal-breaker,” she told Walters. “That’s not something that would make us say, ‘Pack your things and let’s end the marriage.’ We’ve been best friends for over 25 years, and we truly know who we are. Oftentimes, people get into marriages and they don’t know who they’re laying next to. I’m very comfortable and secure with my husband.”

So, how do you feel about that? Honestly, I have to disagree with this statement. Since when did the option of infidelity become apart of a marriage. I believe that if you still have the need for open relationships or not settling down with one person, then you shouldnt get married.

A man perpective....

My week three weight loss update

Yes, I did it I lost 7 lbs last week. I am so proud of myself. All I did was not eat after 7, drink lots of water, and really monitor what I ate. This week I gave myself a goal of one pound to lose. I am sure that I can do it. I have added Cardio back in my life. So far so good. my 19 week journey isnt  too bad.

March Mini Weight loss goal in my 19 week challenge.

This is a start of a new month with my weight loss challenge. I realize now that I need and desire exercise in my routine. I also realize that I like food. Food also can be an addiction. I have to eat to live not live to eat. I place a goal of losing 8 pounds this month. It's not to bad. It will be like 2 lbs a week. WATER WATER WATER. I am looking into more fruits and veggies. I am also looking into a mind frame of I can obtain this goal not hoping that I can complete my goal. I'm trying to comprehend that this is going to be a slow process. I have to realize that slow isnt such a bad thing but a wonderful thing and a mindful journey. Learning to eat and not so much a diet is what's important to me. I am learning more about me and my body.

Wish me luck.